Twenty sixteen from the word get go smacked me in the face and let me know we weren’t going to get along!
I feel like I could end up writing a post that would be very ‘woe is me’ and point out all the really not so great things that happened
over the course of this year but I don’t want to.
1. Because there are way more people much worse off than me, and
2. Because even though all of the circumstances I have found myself in this year although not desirable have all brought me to the place I find myself at now and it’s not a bad place to be.
Over the course of 2016 myself and my ex-business partner cut ties which was a huge amount of upheaval. As the end of the year got closer I really felt like we were starting to hit our stride as far as the new direction of my business and it felt amazing. Although this wasn’t something I had planned for 2016 it has really made me take a long hard look at what we were doing, where we were going and the role I wanted to take in it. I have spent hour upon hour on self development with my coach Lisa, finding my strengths and really finding out what makes me tick. I have come to a place where I feel like this isn’t a mistake, this is what I was suppose to be doing and I’ve earnt it!
Our mission for a family took a back seat towards the middle for the year. After 2 failed IVF attempts at the start of the year the doctors advised us to take a break. With the business buy out also happening at the same time there were just to many balls in the air and something had to give. In all honesty I don’t know where we really are with it at the minute. How long is a piece of string? Am I going to be that women that gets pregnant on my 13th attempt after re-mortgaging my house! I don’t have the answers, it takes so much out of you and I don’t know if I’m ready to start again.
A home update! We have continued with the renovation of our little cottage, there is no other place I ever want to be. Our home is my little sanctuary and I feel so luck to come home to it every night, it really makes me smile! This year we excavated the garden and I got to start planting my garden which I have been dreaming about for years. My Greig finally got his hot tub which was all he ever wanted for the back yard so we now have a lovely outside space which is wonderful for our little Lou Chops. There is still so much to do and it will never be finished but we love it and it is the best decision we have ever made!
When you are in the darkest hole it really highlights the amazing people around you. I have the best friends and I couldn’t live without them. They have helped me in so many ways this year whether it be business wise or literally just not thinking I was mental when I cried for days (I am an ugly crier!). I think the silver lining to challenging times is that you find the people that will show up for you when its hard. It’s easy to be someones friend when life is peachy, sticking it out through the hard times is when you find the real diamonds!
We will be saying good bye to 2016 tonight with my sister and brother-in-law (they are over from Australia for Christmas!). We’re not going out or having a wild night, just a few fireworks, a few drinks and probably a bit of hot tub action! I feel like tonight will be a closed door on a lot of hurt and I’m happy for that door to be firmly shut!
I am heading into 2017 with a head full of dreams, my lovely Greig by my side and all the hopes that a new year should bring.
Happy New Years!